After some months off tumblr (I’m so so so sorry!) I’m back. Feel free to message me whenever you want to get something off your chest, ask for advice, or even if you just want to tell me something cool that happened today, or a crazy dream you have.
Well, this is just my opinion first of all.. Who am I to say what’s right or wrong, plus, life goes crazy, unexpected ways and we may never know what tomorrow will bring us! Still, It seems like she’s someone you really cherish and want by your side. Then feed this friendship. Be there for her! I wouldn’t personally keep waiting for things to change, cause that would only block me from living my life or having new opportunities AND eventually make things awkward between us two.. Still.. again, who knows what may happen tomorrow? People have different paces. We dance in different rythms, and for a relationship to work, we gotta be dancing the same song at the same time. Maybe she didnt want anything with you now because she was going through something, or this guy who dumped her made her a buit disappointed at love, or she’s interested in someone else, or i dont know.. but we dont know what’s gonna happen tomorrow. not even what’s gonna be YOUR pace tomorrow, what YOU’ll be interested in! :] just cherish what you love, always do the best for her, and keep this door open, but dont close others for you..
A] Choose the mountain you want to climb: don’t pay attention to what other people say, such as “that one’s more beautiful” or “this one’s easier”. You’ll be spending lots of energy and enthusiasm to reach your objective, so you’re the only one responsible and you should be sure of what you’re doing. B] Know how to get close to it: mountains are often seen from far off – beautiful, interesting, full of challenges. But what happens when we try to draw closer? Roads run all around them, flowers grow between you and your objective, what seemed so clear on the map is tough in real life. So try all the paths and all the tracks until eventually one day you’re standing in front of the top that you yearn to reach. F] Respect your body: you can only climb a mountain if you give your body the attention it deserves. You have all the time that life grants you, as long as you walk without demanding what can’t be granted. If you go too fast you will grow tired and give up half way there. If you go too slow, night will fall and you will be lost. Enjoy the scenery, take delight in the cool spring water and the fruit that nature generously offers you, but keep on walking. H] Be prepared to climb one kilometer more: the way up to the top of the mountain is always longer than you think. Don’t fool yourself, the moment will arrive when what seemed so near is still very far. But since you were prepared to go beyond, this is not really a problem. J] Make a promise: now that you have discovered a force that you were not even aware of, tell yourself that from now on you will use this force for the rest of your days. Preferably, also promise to discover another mountain, and set off on another adventure. L] Tell your story: yes, tell your story! Give your example. Tell everyone that it’s possible, and other people will then have the courage to face their own mountains.
C] Learn from someone who has already been up there: no matter how unique you feel, there is always someone who has had the same dream before you and ended up leaving marks that can make your journey easier; places to hang the rope, trails, broken branches to make the walking easier. The climb is yours, so is the responsibility, but don’t forget that the experience of others can help a lot.
D] When seen up close, dangers are controllable: when you begin to climb the mountain of your dreams, pay attention to the surroundings. There are cliffs, of course. There are almost imperceptible cracks in the mountain rock. There are stones so polished by storms that they have become as slippery as ice. But if you know where you are placing each footstep, you will notice the traps and how to get around them.
E] The landscape changes, so enjoy it: of course, you have to have an objective in mind – to reach the top. But as you are going up, more things can be seen, and it’s no bother to stop now and again and enjoy the panorama around you. At every meter conquered, you can see a little further, so use this to discover things that you still had not noticed.
G] Respect your soul: don’t keep repeating “I’m going to make it”. Your soul already knows that, what it needs is to use the long journey to be able to grow, stretch along the horizon, touch the sky. An obsession does not help you at all to reach your objective, and even ends up taking the pleasure out of the climb. But pay attention: also, don’t keep saying “it’s harder than I thought”, because that will make you lose your inner strength.
I] Be happy when you reach the top: cry, clap your hands, shout to the four winds that you did it, let the wind – the wind is always blowing up there – purify your mind, refresh your tired and sweaty feet, open your eyes, clean the dust from your heart. It feels so good, what was just a dream before, a distant vision, is now part of your life, you did it!
But the first step is wanting to change, and you’ve already ”reached” that, so that’s great! :)
Since he died I've been leaving post its all around the center. Encouraging messages. Mostly ones like, "Stay strong." "You're beautiful inside and out." "Don't give up hope"
Truth is, he gave ME hope.
Eh, I don’t really know what yo say.. Wish someone had recorded my face while reading this, though. Life is full of surprises and tricks and I don’t really know.. ephemeral gatherings? Ok, you were going through all of this, but I mean, you meet someone today and who can guarantee you they’ll be alive tomorrow? everything is just frangile. I think after losing two people who meant the world to me was that i became like this, you know? I mean.. caring so much about everyone. You never really know what you’re gonna get tomorrow and in the end all you have is the love you share.
After all that I’ve been though, that still makes two of us, anon. :)
I’m not sure what happened but I can tell you’ve done something beautiful and sometimes those things take big efforts. I don’t know nor I’m no one to jugde whether things were worth it or not, but if you fewel any aspect of your life is weaker now, you can always start again. Always. and what you did in the past, even if it once hurt you, i dont even know, gather strenght from it. it sure made you stronger, you know that.
Today could be your last. Today could be his last, or her last. So why would you fill yourself with self pity, drama, and regrets?
It's all futile. Breath each breath like it's your last, so that you don't have to learn this the hard way.
So much love for you xxxx
